Does Environment change effect in a person change?

So much thing have change lately, u were start to work as full-time back and i am getting more and more busy as i am trying to get a good score in sales at the end of the year to regain my reputation towards someone and myself..

and so a gaps or maybe a wall between us have appear..

couldn't able to stop it yet we were fought already..

end up relation have being complicated, this have lead u to feel hard to communicate wit me now..

will this end everything??

Is this mean i am losing u??

was the quarrel cause by me??

none of us know..

but to accept wat have happen and cure our relation to carry on our life..

Admitting it is mine fault was the best solution cause i also dunno it was my faulty or urs..

at last i have admit it and u have gain more freedom from me but i can feel there is still a gaps in me and u..

seeing u going out with others without me controlling ur time, i feel the pain in me, pain which come from the bottom of my heart..

cause i gonna see u sleeping late midnight to finish ur part time again and waking up at early morning which make u look so tired..

i hope i could help u but i fail..

fail just becoz i dunno chinese so i unable to help u and wat i could do is just sitting here and staring at the wall hoping u would finish it early..

our time is getting more and more un-match..

u are gaining another life now..

a new working life..

a life that i couldn't block and a life that will take away u from me it seems..

seeing u step by step making distance on us lead me to feel guilty and hate my work..

which is also the main cause that making us apart now..

i hope i would able to change it..

i promise myself to get over this..

all i need is u back like normal now..

still waiting and worry u here is a

drizzling dark night which makes me feel more sad

Stupidity on Family background

Izit a good or bad family background going to lead the way of their kid being grow???
A good family background izit going to born a good and full of future mankind???
Family background is something we as a child can't choose coz we got no right to choose which family to born from.. It's all set by fate, is this mean that a kid born in a bad or poor family going to lead their son to the poor generation too??
Why does human have to view a person personality and future based on their parent pass??
Izit so important a parent pass to him?
I'm sure a kid who is born in poor family can do better than those which born to have a good family background, poor family kids works more harder to get what they wan.. This made them more appreciate what they have than those rich kid..
Why as a person which have survive in this kind of rich and poor world can't just categorize a person by that person enthusiasm and work to carry on their life but have to categorize them from their family pass???
Izit there is a confirm statement that stated on their forehead saying that they will not success no matter how??
Is this stupidity human behavior must have on everyone mind itself??
I just dun understand how an age person view on us..
There is no explanation to be found by me, can someone explain it??

Dearest Birthday..

Her birthday is coming up soon.. just few days more.. very soon.. but i have plan nothing for her..
At first plan to buy her a present which she wish to buy herself for so long ad but have been block by her to do so due to that present cost a lot and i always have money problem.. Sigh!!(white hair grow more as i sigh):P
then i plan to go for a vacation with her so i have take leave for 4 days from 19th till 22nd this month and have been approve without a question but her work is too much till i dun think this plan gonna work.. means my 4 days off gonna throw to sea ad.. but hope there is changest.. sigh!!
Arggh!! Wat can i do for her somemore?? She dun have time, i dun have money!!
Wat can i do??
wat can i do??
wat can i do??

Fail again..!!

Once again i have fail to quit smoking..
lol.. it's been like how many times i have told myself to stop smoking but still not work..
everyone include myself was asking me to stop smoking but why am i still continue??
am i addicted?? i dun think so.. but why i just can't stop smoking??
F***..Fail again!!
Sigh...!!
Sorry.. i fail upon wat u wish me to do...