Everything have just pass so fast

It's been a few week pass, all the image of u are still in my head.
Every night before i can fall asleep, all ur image was flashing in my mind.
Wanted take it out but i was unable, there is nothing i can do.
U have mean a lot to me, the first and ever. How could i let u go??
Our relation become like this is all becoz misunderstand, could there be anyway to rescue it?
Always hoping for miracle to happen but there is how many miracle that really happen in ones' life? Always hoping for help but is there really someone can help me? Always hoping for u to turn back but when only it will happen?
Love, love, love.... Wat is love man????!! making people suffer..
This few days there is always a question in my mind...
HOW MANY TRUE LOVE ARE THERE IN A PERSON LIFE??
WAT IS TRUE LOVE??
I have been telling myself u are my true love as wat u know, but is this?
If YES why does it break so easily???
BREAK BREAK and BREAK again..
Does every god damn love relation have to be like this????
I have seen people who having years of relation also but why we just cant???
It's hard for me to let u go..
For u friend is always more important than bf, if u were me??
There is always people telling me this and that make u like become not worth that i love u so much even those that i treat them as best fren also said so..
but i have never let u go, i dun mind wat people thing and see me but the most important is u..
Now.. those days have pass.. u are still in my mind.. ur pict are still flashing in my mind every time when i am free especially at night.. It's the most suffering moment for me, it happen till 3,4 o'clock or sometimes till 5.. just doing nothing and staring to wall...
The last thing i ever hope now is u are living happily, no sick, no pain..
Take care.

WAT DO U WAN FROM ME????

It's just almost 1 month, did u just forget wat u told me when u was asking me to back together???!! Believe in wat u say wat u did for me is for my good sake have just making me feel more sick. This night when u tell me to break up again i was like "oh god u were so good, it was so match tonight coz i was able to get drunk tonight and sleep wit a peace mind and end up i really drunk.
Again and again u say the same thing to me, once and once u get me hurt, wat do u wan me to do? u been telling me i am a very good bf ad but if so... then why i keep on facing this end? Did i wrong in believe u?? How many time have i say i dun mind and i dun mind??? Do we really need to end it in this way???
Embarrassment!!! I guess my fren will be lol now..
haha... Congrate nick!! U been dump again!!

Life is a circle..

Life is really tired...
Hope to go for a holiday with someone i love but...haiz..
nvm.. as long as u are with me i'm happy ad.. miss.
your birthday is coming up this sunday dear, wish u "Happy birthday" at here first.
Hope can see u that day..

My words seem to be in someone mind recently, i have view her blog and it remind me again "life is a circle".. just like wat i told her, life is a circle u will face up and down in ur life. Funny. I have told someone something which i got no prove and never experience to.. haha.. coz all the time till now i am only feel the down.. all the time was broke, all the time was tired and all the time with all those bullshit in my head which i need to figure out solution for it..
Am I correct? Life is really a circle?
If it does, when only will i receive my level of going up in my life?
Hoping that wat i told her is true "Life Is A Circle".
So that i can enjoy my life soon.
For me life is still miserable.
Hope not everyone was like me.
oh yea... and hope that the girl will get rid of her trouble and stand up on her own feet soon..
For me, there is nothing so special recently hope there is somethin happening and unusual happen soon..

Finally...

After so long of struggling to choose which job i wan to go for,
FINALLY i've choose to stay. Stay in this business field which right now i still think it suit me and was wat i wanna be..
I've been struggle in make decision int this 2 weeks, 2 weeks is a long time.. a long time to decide which job i wan the most. Hope that i was not wrong in making this decision.. and sorry to Samsung, u have give me a good offer and i know out of so many people i was the only one which get selected but i think now is still not the time for me to change field since i think i still have space to achieve my goal in this company.
Haiz...
After the decision, I thought that i would able to be happy and relax a bit but i have not been offday for 1 week ad.. haha.. and i only get my break on next sunday which means i gonna work without off for this 2 week but it's worth it.. coz today itself i already get 3 times of my normal salary which is around RM200.

After all...
Sad thing is still approach me everyday, her birthday is coming up on 10th May but.. too bad, there is nothing i can do with her or even for her coz she was unable to come out again, sad.. haiz.. Miss u dear..feel so sorry for it..can't even accompany u on ur birthday and even can't go to ur birthday party on saturday night..
maybe this is our fate.. haha.. but i will always wait for miracle to happen.. i will be strong as long as i can to face this matter which happen to us.. I will always with u unless u give me up..believe me.. i would give up anything just for you.
MISS..

Really tired ad.. was going to get sick that day but didn't happen..I have to be strong, strong enough to take care myself..As wat u wan me to be..
Wat a tired week..??!! Have been working for full few days straght..