Wat have happen to me??

Wat have happen to me???
My mood were totally out of my control...
Izit becoz i too tired?? I were very ok this morning.. till noon... suddenly i feel headache then dizzy again.. after that stomach ache... then feel wanna vomit.. then headache again.. since then my mood was totally out of control.. a while was ok a while was not..
Already 4 customer that i make them walk out this shop with anger..
Why?? What happen?? i even scolded all my fren which msn me..
I was not like this normally.. This few day i have been totally out of control!!
Headache and dizzy again now..
Izit becoz too much of work? izit becoz i am lonely?? izit becoz i am too tired??
Stop asking me why?? coz i also dunno why? Sorry everyone...
I really out of control...
Feel like whack someone, feel like scold everyone which talk to me.. i ad try my best to control myself at last i lost control to customer...
I need a rest?? Maybe.. but i dun wan to be alone.. and i dun wan to stuck in this working shit also.. wat can i do?? i really very tension now...
Feeling sick..Feeling angry.. Feeling loneliness..
Wat the fuck did i wan from myself??????
Pain all over my body have made my mood more worse..
I think There is one girl can make me control back myself but she is been busy this 2 days..
past few days i was ok and i can control myself very well while i was chatting with her whole day.. and i was very happy and relax when talk to her..
This 2 days when she is busy i was totally out of control..
Wat is this?
Wat happen to me?
I'm very tired now...
Wat can i do? feeling really really weak..
HELP!!

Where is my dream??

Haiz.. 2 years time were just wasted like this.. Friends which i know and going the same way as me were here and there all over malaysia now and i am still here at klang.. Seeing each of them preparing stuff to leave here for further study, i suddenly feel my heart were flying some where else which i dun expect it to be.. my heart were following the flow now.. wish i could able to enter uni also.. haiz.. sad.. 2 years were just wasted like that without a piece of paper on hand.. STPM is really hard? no.. i dun think so if u were study properly and put all ur efford into it since u start form 6..and made a right choice in course u like.
but me? study work study work make me really tired.. ended up sleeping inside the class whole day.. and 2 month before exam only try to catch back... conclusion?? FAIL
regret is useless now.. further study have gone far away from me.. chance for a step in uni have disappear.. study is far apart of me now...
College life would not afford, Uni life screw up..
Looks like i really need to put more efford in work.. at least now i am a supervisor in a shop..
getting promoted is not as easy as i thought..
leaving the company for a better opportunity was not easy also.. Have been offer by a lot company but end up i didnt not have enough courage to leave this company..
What is ahead me? i keep on ask myself!!
Can't see anything, what ever ahead me is blank now..
My dream to explore the world have crashed too..
With my situation now, every dream of mine have gone... Life is changing towards me so fast.. Seeing people having fun while i still need to work, the feeling is real sucks..My freedom have gone too...
ARRGH!!!... Since small watever ahead me was already blank, hardly imagine my future is still blank now.. Living in this world wothout a dream is sucks!! No Finish line ahead me.. and wat i can do is just run and run and run.. Really very tired ady.. Can hardly continue run somemore but wat i can do is still carry on crawl.. My family is still waiting for me to back home..
Feeling sorrow and lonely making my strength to getting weak and weaker..

WARNING!!

As a human, PLEASE make sure wat have happen before u start a quarrel with someone!! Unless u are a stupid Fucker which never been teach by ur mum and dad before!! and at here i wanna make sure one thing, i hate those fucking people that like to blame on someone and those which doesn't make clear of everythin before start blaming people!! So.. Please do make sure wat have happen before u left a post here.. hope that everyone of u was graduated by ur parent before u were here and dun be a pussy!! if u dare to post make sure u dare to let people know who are u also!! Dun try to put ur name like very scary o fierce but doesn't dare to stand out to show urself also..!! As like u name urself "punisher", do u think u are god? u are just a pussy!! "gui gui sui sui". Be a human please, if u think u are a god o punisher then just come and punish me!! no point u comment so many shit at the CBOX and name urself punisher but be a coward there!!
If u all dun understand HOW DOES A PUSSY ACT? Please refer to the CBOX which name "PUNISHER- coward, pussy fellow." a good eg. for all of u..
REMENBER!!
Dun be a pussy!!

True Friend and Love??

What is true friend??
What is true love??
How many true friend and true love did a person have??
I have been through a deep relationship before and for me it was a true love.. but it's the end now.. my true love have leave me far apart now.. the feeling of love is no longer in my heart now.. I wonder where have it been.. Can hardly find it deep inside my heart now.. Maybe my true love were just ended but will there be another?? another true love?? no one have the right to answer me this question i guess.. haha XD.. sound stupid right?
By the way, How many true friend did u have?? Wat is true friend?? Who is ur true friend?? Once i were thought i have a lot of friend.. That was long time ago.. Now i can feel wat is friend means to me and who is the one which can be call friend and which is the one i should call bro.. or best friend..
I wonder could any of my fren tell me that they treat me as a true friend, a true friend which willing to help no matter when o wat, a friend which willing to share with u wat he got, a friend who willing to help u find solution... a fren which willing to come out to accompany u no matter when o wat is coming up next..
How many of u dare to say that u will do that?? how many of human that would stand up and say they willing to give wat ever they have to one person as a true friend help?? i guess there will be very less.. i am this kind of person, if i were able to help no matter how busy i also will help as long as in my memory he was one of my friend, i would never let go any of my friend no matter how i hate them..LOL.. but do i get the same feedback?? that is a secret..

Lesson to face m'sian trouble

Yesterday before finish work i receive a call from KAM ask for shisha at andalas. So, after work when every shit settle i went to Al-Bidayah where the shisha placed to find for them. After shisha we plan for cybercafe and there we go we went for around 1 hour plus then we to go home. Out of so many of us which went to cybercafe, the police were only following me and after a while he started to chase me, end up stop me by side of a road which situated right beside Giant Hypermarket. Lots of people that passed by there were slowing down to see wat happen.. LOL.. After all the check that they have done, they let me go and they take an U turn at traffic light ahead which i dun think it is allow. Forget it, then i carry on to drive home. In just another 2mins of drive another police car were following me, this time they were just following right beside my car.. i wonder wat so nice to see at my car, wat make all the police pay so much attention to my car.. SWT!! then they follow me back home...
ROFL..

after all the bad luck story, here is some lesson that i learn after being block by police car so many times, which not even twice..

1st) If u see blue light following u, faster tighten ur sit belt if u havent
2nd) Do not get down the car, let them see u with sit belt.
3rd) Pass them ur I/C and License
4rd) BE READY TO ANSWER WAT EVER SHIT THEY GOING TO ASK U, with a reasonable answer( my car were a bit higer behind than others car coz i were using van absorber so they ask me "why ur car behind so high?" then i say my mum use last time, she fix it few years ad. they ask again "what is her occupation, why the car need to be so high?" lesson is be ready to answer their question and answer it with some reasonable answer. coz they were trying to trick u, once u answer wrongly some duit kopi will surely needed ad
5th) If they cant catch u anythin, be careful they will surely ask u open bonet, open ur bag, open this and that but one thing "DO NOT LET THEM TOUCH U"
after all if they didnt get anythin to trick u then u are safe, besides remember this "Dont put any stick o things that normally people use for fighting inside the car.

Sweet memory

What is the best way to erase those sweet memory in the pass??
I'm very tired and not feeling well now..
Been trying was to erase those memories and stop myself from bothering her but i cant make it most of the time.. WHY??? WHY???
What should i do? What can i do to forget the past???
I though i can use work to block my brain from access to those memory but.. at last it still cant work.. It is just making me more tired, have been few times almost accident but luckily enough time to notice that..
I even try to find a replace for those memory but i cant do tat, feeling guilty to myself have block me from doing that to hurt myself..
Lot of things i have done but not one of it can replace those sweet memory in my mind.. wat should i do???
I'm really tired, really very tired.
Everyday feeling sick now..
Pain in the heart that no one will know, when will it disappear?

"Lesson of the day"

"Think properly before making a choice..
DO NOT simply just say out any word before u think bout it.
Every single word that u have been said u have to mean it, there is no turning back to regret. Every human were only given a chance, make a wise choice in that chance, think before u say , promise or accept."





Proven by what i have seen.
Believe it or when somethin really happen u will regret.