Does Environment change effect in a person change?

So much thing have change lately, u were start to work as full-time back and i am getting more and more busy as i am trying to get a good score in sales at the end of the year to regain my reputation towards someone and myself..

and so a gaps or maybe a wall between us have appear..

couldn't able to stop it yet we were fought already..

end up relation have being complicated, this have lead u to feel hard to communicate wit me now..

will this end everything??

Is this mean i am losing u??

was the quarrel cause by me??

none of us know..

but to accept wat have happen and cure our relation to carry on our life..

Admitting it is mine fault was the best solution cause i also dunno it was my faulty or urs..

at last i have admit it and u have gain more freedom from me but i can feel there is still a gaps in me and u..

seeing u going out with others without me controlling ur time, i feel the pain in me, pain which come from the bottom of my heart..

cause i gonna see u sleeping late midnight to finish ur part time again and waking up at early morning which make u look so tired..

i hope i could help u but i fail..

fail just becoz i dunno chinese so i unable to help u and wat i could do is just sitting here and staring at the wall hoping u would finish it early..

our time is getting more and more un-match..

u are gaining another life now..

a new working life..

a life that i couldn't block and a life that will take away u from me it seems..

seeing u step by step making distance on us lead me to feel guilty and hate my work..

which is also the main cause that making us apart now..

i hope i would able to change it..

i promise myself to get over this..

all i need is u back like normal now..

still waiting and worry u here is a

drizzling dark night which makes me feel more sad